SIYA

I don't know how to pen down the feelings that I feel now.. never expected it to be such an overwhelming experience...
how the life takes a turn and everything that once was important seems so trivial now...
all the world revolves around just one thing and one thing only...
it just becomes the reason for you to breath and feel the reason to live more than ever only to see the little joys that it comes with and fills every moment of your life

SIYA - my chonna, my baboo :))

We(mumma & puppa) LOVE you more than anything in this world...!!!! 

Back-Again

Uff its being like ages that I've written anything.. Life's been full of changes and surprises but that doesn't calls for any excuses. Just to let you know, not single anymore :) , no mingle anymore :(
but that's fine we all have to settle down sometime and better have it rather than never.. life is so much more different than before for good i believe..
dil mein hamesha ek hi khyaal rehtaa hain, bas wahi hamesha yaad rehta hain ;)

30++

"As we waited with Bated breath for the clock to tick past twelve I suddenly realized how time has run without a fuss leaving me nothing to dwell. It took a bit of time to sink while my life has taken U turn, its time to realise to make the most of it while the candle still burns."

For what it's worth this was perhaps the most happiest occasion of my recent past. There is nothing like being close to your near and dear ones. Its like liberating to a whole new world without a care for a thing knowing every wrong move there is someone to keep you at bay.

So when it was decided sometime last week that I'd be making a round trip back to NJ and meet Anu,Shiks n Tiwari it was the start of journey of funfilled dreams and emotions at that instant. To have such loving friends is one thing, being graced by love by all at the sametime is another. It doesn't undermines the love and care of others who couldn't join me unfortunately as their wishes are always with me, that I know for sure!

I started my sojourn on a friday evening, looking to make up the journey in appropriate time then my previous visit and was hoping to catch up on some dinner with abhishek, but it wasn't to be. Anyways better late then never I reached just in time to share a shot of uncle Jack before we hit the bed. The next morning brought new found joy and brightness and along with it two rays of lights in the form of anu and shiks. To be able to locate them was in itself an effort and I must appreciate abhisheks sixth sense to search them around the community. Though it did made him a bit annoyed for the rays to touchdown took a bit more time but still it wasn't that late.

After a nice lunch at Chevy's which my host and anu gladly agreed to pay, it was time for some leg pulling and mr. T made sure he left no stones unturned to show what he was capable of. Evening was spent watching 'Udaan' together only to realize it was time for us to run away from this monotonous life and reach out to the varying degree of mercury of life. That was sure found in Fire n Ice(Disc n Pub) which was hosting a Bollywood nite that day(night before the B-day) When Punjabi music, some drinks n beauty are mixed it makes up for the deadliest combination around and before you know it ur blood has it running it all over ur body.

The night was ended with some uncalled emotion on my part for which i'll regret whenever I remember but such things are hardly taken to heart and all is forgotten :)

The next day is the toughest, to part ways when everyone's leaving for their place, I decide to stay back making sure able to spend some time with tiwari. We see off anu and then leave to JFK for shiks to board her plane back to India. If saying bye to anu wasn't enough I could hardly speak at the airport as shiks went thru her security clearance and luggage checkins. Thereon, we headed to meet Sappu, abhishek's brother and had a bite with him at his place. It was always so fulfilling to meet sappu as if ur meeting ur own brother. And so that was, we called it a day after having a hand at some fifa excitement on PS3 and I started my journey back home next day with mixed emotions of Joy and Sadness.

Thanks guys I love you and admire you so much that words can't express.

The pleasure of meeting you all is worth enough to travel miles :))

Love
Kapil

Here I am - part I

Scene1:
Location: VIT hostel
there was chaos around in one evening of weekend sometime in Feb or Mar of 2003. I see tiwari, vijh, tarun n others going and asking each other something. I was confused, I was amazed what the heck are they trying to do running here and there? No exams in sights, no results are out and the IT companies also haven't changed the policies which say they take freshers, I mean we were the freshers being in our first year of post grad.
All of a sudden tiwari barges in our room and ask me how much % you got in ur bachelors? I said 72... gud enuff... come with us... there is an ad in the paper and you're eligible for that.
Neeraj also comes as he was the topper in the college where I too studied.
so we 7 are found standing outside the college campus waiting for the next bus from village to take us to chittoor bus stand where we might be able to find the internet cafe open as the college lab is already closed, yes today is the last day of application.
So we all were finally able to apply for the exam and off we went back in some hope and some excitement!
More to come after the break.

This far

It's been long since I wrote anything and its not that I didnt wish to but just that I couldn't. But enough is enough, even if it is for 2 lines my mind need to scribble something thats visible to my eyes not just feel it.
I've come this far that its difficult to turn back not that it's not possible but its probably tragic and would be catastrophic to do so. Like a wandering soul in the desert think of giving up everything for the never ending sand in his sights, keep walking for there might not be an oasis to come but those burn marks have lot to teach.

l.a.k

What! are you dreaming..? this will never happen...
how can you think about that too....just forget it...
well so there is something there...
good so its progressing as I can see...good for you but be honest...
ok so what have you decided? are you going to do something or not...
well are you going to do anything about it or not...???
why the hell do you want to sit on it just go and vomit it out...!!
for God's sake are you gonna do anything or not...
so there is something else, its not in your hands but don't you give it up..!
ok, so so so... don't think about it...
hey how many times will we tell you just forget about it...
ok its over! its impossible... :(

Things... things...they just change
but the more they change they more they remain the same...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Wonder Years

This was one of the most famous sitcoms to be aired in the late 80's depicting a normal sub-urban american family from the late 70's from the eyes of a growing teen aged boy 'Kevin' played impressively by Fred Savage till he grows a bit old. The main parts are played by kevin, Winnie(his girl), Paul(best friend) and ably supported by veteran tv artists Dan Lauria and Alley Mills playing kevins parents. Also supported by his elder brother and sisters.

It was aired sometime in the late nineties in India on star plus and I made sure to catch up with almost all of the episodes. Some of the names that have appeared on the show now are a names in the industry like Juliette Lewis, Giovanni Ribisi of (Gone In 60 Seconds, Boiler Room, Saving Private Ryan, Lost in Translation and more recently, Public Enemies and Avatar) to name a few. The show to its credit has also won Emmy & Golden Globe awards too, but it lost it shine like everything when it grows old and losing of charm and innocence coinciding with the age of the main parts.

But the most common part which kep me glued to the series was not anything but the common-ness and average(ness) of the character played by Kevin(not counting the romantics of his life) but in every other parts of life like school, studies daily things of life , trying to find excuses for failures which I could relate to instantly.

The final sounds, voice-over and dialogue of the episode and series, is that of Kevin (Daniel Stern) providing concluding narration with the sound of children playing in the background:
Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers, the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a place, a town, a house, like a lot of houses. A yard like a lot of other yards. On a street like a lot of other streets. And the thing is, after all these years, I still look back...with wonder.