SIYA

I don't know how to pen down the feelings that I feel now.. never expected it to be such an overwhelming experience...
how the life takes a turn and everything that once was important seems so trivial now...
all the world revolves around just one thing and one thing only...
it just becomes the reason for you to breath and feel the reason to live more than ever only to see the little joys that it comes with and fills every moment of your life

SIYA - my chonna, my baboo :))

We(mumma & puppa) LOVE you more than anything in this world...!!!! 

Back-Again

Uff its being like ages that I've written anything.. Life's been full of changes and surprises but that doesn't calls for any excuses. Just to let you know, not single anymore :) , no mingle anymore :(
but that's fine we all have to settle down sometime and better have it rather than never.. life is so much more different than before for good i believe..
dil mein hamesha ek hi khyaal rehtaa hain, bas wahi hamesha yaad rehta hain ;)

30++

"As we waited with Bated breath for the clock to tick past twelve I suddenly realized how time has run without a fuss leaving me nothing to dwell. It took a bit of time to sink while my life has taken U turn, its time to realise to make the most of it while the candle still burns."

For what it's worth this was perhaps the most happiest occasion of my recent past. There is nothing like being close to your near and dear ones. Its like liberating to a whole new world without a care for a thing knowing every wrong move there is someone to keep you at bay.

So when it was decided sometime last week that I'd be making a round trip back to NJ and meet Anu,Shiks n Tiwari it was the start of journey of funfilled dreams and emotions at that instant. To have such loving friends is one thing, being graced by love by all at the sametime is another. It doesn't undermines the love and care of others who couldn't join me unfortunately as their wishes are always with me, that I know for sure!

I started my sojourn on a friday evening, looking to make up the journey in appropriate time then my previous visit and was hoping to catch up on some dinner with abhishek, but it wasn't to be. Anyways better late then never I reached just in time to share a shot of uncle Jack before we hit the bed. The next morning brought new found joy and brightness and along with it two rays of lights in the form of anu and shiks. To be able to locate them was in itself an effort and I must appreciate abhisheks sixth sense to search them around the community. Though it did made him a bit annoyed for the rays to touchdown took a bit more time but still it wasn't that late.

After a nice lunch at Chevy's which my host and anu gladly agreed to pay, it was time for some leg pulling and mr. T made sure he left no stones unturned to show what he was capable of. Evening was spent watching 'Udaan' together only to realize it was time for us to run away from this monotonous life and reach out to the varying degree of mercury of life. That was sure found in Fire n Ice(Disc n Pub) which was hosting a Bollywood nite that day(night before the B-day) When Punjabi music, some drinks n beauty are mixed it makes up for the deadliest combination around and before you know it ur blood has it running it all over ur body.

The night was ended with some uncalled emotion on my part for which i'll regret whenever I remember but such things are hardly taken to heart and all is forgotten :)

The next day is the toughest, to part ways when everyone's leaving for their place, I decide to stay back making sure able to spend some time with tiwari. We see off anu and then leave to JFK for shiks to board her plane back to India. If saying bye to anu wasn't enough I could hardly speak at the airport as shiks went thru her security clearance and luggage checkins. Thereon, we headed to meet Sappu, abhishek's brother and had a bite with him at his place. It was always so fulfilling to meet sappu as if ur meeting ur own brother. And so that was, we called it a day after having a hand at some fifa excitement on PS3 and I started my journey back home next day with mixed emotions of Joy and Sadness.

Thanks guys I love you and admire you so much that words can't express.

The pleasure of meeting you all is worth enough to travel miles :))

Love
Kapil

Here I am - part I

Scene1:
Location: VIT hostel
there was chaos around in one evening of weekend sometime in Feb or Mar of 2003. I see tiwari, vijh, tarun n others going and asking each other something. I was confused, I was amazed what the heck are they trying to do running here and there? No exams in sights, no results are out and the IT companies also haven't changed the policies which say they take freshers, I mean we were the freshers being in our first year of post grad.
All of a sudden tiwari barges in our room and ask me how much % you got in ur bachelors? I said 72... gud enuff... come with us... there is an ad in the paper and you're eligible for that.
Neeraj also comes as he was the topper in the college where I too studied.
so we 7 are found standing outside the college campus waiting for the next bus from village to take us to chittoor bus stand where we might be able to find the internet cafe open as the college lab is already closed, yes today is the last day of application.
So we all were finally able to apply for the exam and off we went back in some hope and some excitement!
More to come after the break.

This far

It's been long since I wrote anything and its not that I didnt wish to but just that I couldn't. But enough is enough, even if it is for 2 lines my mind need to scribble something thats visible to my eyes not just feel it.
I've come this far that its difficult to turn back not that it's not possible but its probably tragic and would be catastrophic to do so. Like a wandering soul in the desert think of giving up everything for the never ending sand in his sights, keep walking for there might not be an oasis to come but those burn marks have lot to teach.

l.a.k

What! are you dreaming..? this will never happen...
how can you think about that too....just forget it...
well so there is something there...
good so its progressing as I can see...good for you but be honest...
ok so what have you decided? are you going to do something or not...
well are you going to do anything about it or not...???
why the hell do you want to sit on it just go and vomit it out...!!
for God's sake are you gonna do anything or not...
so there is something else, its not in your hands but don't you give it up..!
ok, so so so... don't think about it...
hey how many times will we tell you just forget about it...
ok its over! its impossible... :(

Things... things...they just change
but the more they change they more they remain the same...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Wonder Years

This was one of the most famous sitcoms to be aired in the late 80's depicting a normal sub-urban american family from the late 70's from the eyes of a growing teen aged boy 'Kevin' played impressively by Fred Savage till he grows a bit old. The main parts are played by kevin, Winnie(his girl), Paul(best friend) and ably supported by veteran tv artists Dan Lauria and Alley Mills playing kevins parents. Also supported by his elder brother and sisters.

It was aired sometime in the late nineties in India on star plus and I made sure to catch up with almost all of the episodes. Some of the names that have appeared on the show now are a names in the industry like Juliette Lewis, Giovanni Ribisi of (Gone In 60 Seconds, Boiler Room, Saving Private Ryan, Lost in Translation and more recently, Public Enemies and Avatar) to name a few. The show to its credit has also won Emmy & Golden Globe awards too, but it lost it shine like everything when it grows old and losing of charm and innocence coinciding with the age of the main parts.

But the most common part which kep me glued to the series was not anything but the common-ness and average(ness) of the character played by Kevin(not counting the romantics of his life) but in every other parts of life like school, studies daily things of life , trying to find excuses for failures which I could relate to instantly.

The final sounds, voice-over and dialogue of the episode and series, is that of Kevin (Daniel Stern) providing concluding narration with the sound of children playing in the background:
Growing up happens in a heartbeat. One day you're in diapers, the next day you're gone. But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul. I remember a place, a town, a house, like a lot of houses. A yard like a lot of other yards. On a street like a lot of other streets. And the thing is, after all these years, I still look back...with wonder.

U must not have been looking

Hey I have seen you somewhere ..??
Me ! no I don't think so...
Do you go to the artist plaza..?
Yeah that's my favorite hangout place...
except for the parking lot...
yeah right giggles :)
But I haven't seen u there...?
You must not have been looking...!!
:)
:)

So near yet so far

Date: 11/05/2009(mm/dd/YYyy)

Match: Ind Vs Aus

Scorecard:

Australia 350/4 (50 ov) : S.Marsh 112(112 balls, 8X4, 2X6)

S.Watson 93(89 balls, 9X4, 3X6)

India 347 (49.4 ov) : S. Tendulkar 175 (141 balls, 19X4, 4X6)

The genius called tendulkar nearly pulled off for India what would have been a great and improbable win just fell short of the mark and expectedly the rest weren't able to cope with the loss and we couldnt scrape past one across them. This is such a similar sight seeing sides not able to get the knockout punch to the Aussies in particular which can be attributed to the fact they might be more tougher mentally or the other sides are not that much as them.

Year 1999 , match : Ind vs Pak (test match), India lost almost on the doorsteps of victory, that time also the genius had taken them so close and this time too. That time it was such an emotional heartbreak for him and the nation that he was crying in the dressing room and didnt even turn up for the post match ceremony where he was the Man of Match.

Need to say what the man might be going through now. Words cannot express the disappointment he must be feeling now. As for me no matter how sad I am it'll be paling in comparison to what tendulkar might be going through ,able to console myself with that :(

Take care Sachin....

life a.k.a movies

why can't "Life" be like movies? different Genres, different colors, different characters. They all have diferent story line ups and somehow I end up searching a part of me in all of these....and eventually we are more or less satisfied by the ending what happens there..or if not then we are either taught some lesson. But no matter how much I wish my life also turns out like a movie, it Flops :(

trick r treat...

As being a horror movie sucker I am always on the lookout for some good gory zombie, slasher, ghostly, bloody ..... etc etc ... type movies. Browsing through wikipedia catalog http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_horror_films I encountered this movie which stuck me by the picture of a cute pumpkin baby draped in a sack-cloth looking ominously. Read through some of the storyline and came to know the movie was pushed back for release by warner bros. and legendary pictures for some reasons. Finally its here, its a story of inter-related stories which are presented quite nicely. It shows merciless killings for not paying respect to someone's disabilities and abilities. All in all a nice opening 45mins with a subdued last 40mins but interesting to watch, must recommended along with Stephen king's IT which has some relation to this with kids in common and an amazing scene of Georgie falling for 'Pennywise the Clown' must see scene - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzoPUHKZTNM&feature=PlayList&p=979873D7920478E1&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=30
That's it for today
adios....

Birthday Bash...

This was a unique birthday for me, not that some crazy stuff happened. It was like all other nice one's with friends like last year when I visited tiwari's where vijhi and mrs. vijhi surprised :) This year I finally managed to get a license for myself and exorcist the dream of driving on US road by from columbus, OH to Rochester NY at Anu's place all by myself. It was nice again to celebrate the b'day with a friend. Thanks guys for being there :)
Though there wer some couple odd moments when I had to do a U-turn 22 miles for an under construction exit miss but all that counts is I made it!

PS: 1. Mujhe abhi tak zyada gifts nahi mile hain, the doors are still open ;)
2. Next post inspired by josey....

Locked Out

Though it shudnt surprise those who know me well that I keep on getting myself into stupid situations or doing stupid things. They'd rather say that I am stupid being so its quite common for me, anyways coming to the topic of post. This Friday dated
30-May-09 I managed to come out of my house and forgot both yes not 1 but both the pair of keys of house inside. I wonder what these fair skinned idiots thought while building this auto-lock system in doors like computers alas we always have to remember the password in our grey matter rather than carry it in our pocket. Funny ain't but sure enuff itz not believe and you'll believe it when you know why-
1a. The prop mgrs - sir we dnt have the keys to ur house it wud be with the owner, but if we'd had them we'd charge you 150$ for sending them over[ohh yeah like they are keys to ur world bank you as*(()(e]
1b. The property managers told me to either call the locksmith which locked out his shop and ran away to celebrate the gud/bad friday early.
2. If not he'll send someone with a ladder or equipment to enter in the house, ohh how sweet -- no the bugger said every hour the man wud be charged 100$ (Bloody He^&^&&) n they say why US is in recession, no doubts at all.
3. Safe passage call the owner - voila what we get he's in Washington celebrating the long weekend from the previous weekend and continuing over from the weekend before that may be. Well how else he's earning his money rather than leasing his house to such idiots, ok boss but i can take the keys to home from ur reidence in NY?
Ans: No Ka(Y)pil i am carrying the keys[I am thinking wat the hell is he carrying keys for an apt which he has rented and he itz not supposed to exist on the map where he is rite now(washington)] Ka(Y)pil I feel sorry for you but if you can survive the night I can come tomw[assuming you pay me a fine] -- Bugger off.... I'll better go for option 2:

So the guy came after fightin with the traffic that day some 45 minutes later and just opened the room like we open maruti in India with sliding a plane object and pushing up the look from the slanted side.
cost incurred-100$

wat a nightmare, thank God I took my beer out with me and thanks to my new beautiful neighbour she gave me one more before dancing her to meet her date.

WAT a Life, it sure sucks but itz interesting ;))

Tagged-Its all about numbers

Anu tagged again to do this....
1 is the no of times i have fallen in love till now..
2 are my elder brothers who are twins but not lookalike
3 is the no. of people i lived as in room-mates for most of my life outside home.
4 years was the duration of WASE my MS
5 is the no of friends whom I considered as my best and closest but it should be mutual, shouldn't it?
6 years since I have been part of this industry...
7 things i'd loved to change if given wishes- emotional attachment, less of intelligence, cribbing, height, hairstyle, my house in b'lore, negative thinking.
8 was the no. of months I stayed in VIT,vellore for MCA before joining WASE
9 is the number of Test playing nations officially but less play..
10 thousand$ is what I wish to get paid everymonth and increment every every-year...

Huh! somehow I've done it....given the nature of task....

Tagged

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Yep, infact I changed my name from being called as Nitin given by my parents....


2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
December, 2007

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
A big noooooooooooooo


4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Chicken - biryani....


5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope - none officially ;))


6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I really don't know the answer....all my pals think again ....


7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
yeah, i try to limit it but can't gaurantee

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Nope!


9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Yep any time...


10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL
Simple plain sugar coated corn flakes


11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
yep....


12. IF YOU WERE TO PICK YOU OWN FIRST NAME, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
hmmmm thinking thinking...

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Vanilla...

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their clothes...


15. RED OR PINK?

Red


16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Am emotional....

17. WHOM DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Parents, Friends...

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
really dnt know...

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
currently am at home in worn old T-shirt n shorts.... :D

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Tum ho toh - rock on...

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Sky Blue....

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Davidoff as acquired recently via a gift :)

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My friend Anu.

25. HOW DO YOU KNOW THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
She is my best friend since quite sometime....

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Cricket

27. HAIR COLOR?
grey mostly stalked with black.... mein budhha ho raha hoon :(

28. EYE COLOR?
Dark brown

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
No

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
mom's Kadi chawal....

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
The scary the better but with some logic...

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Visitor...

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Uff -- Ghatiya T-shirt...


34. SUMMER OR WINTER
Isnt spring better, why no 1 asks abt it....

35. HUGS OR KISSES
Hugs

36. DESCRIBE YOUR PENCIL CUP
pencil cup watz that i use coffe mug instead

38. FAVORITE ARTIST(s)?
Aamir khan til recently but.....

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
nothin....

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
plain blank...

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
No TV , itz only for rich n the famous....

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S).
heeee

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
hmmmm

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Currently 7 seas far

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I wouldnt say, but i can bore people i feel....


46. WHERE WERE U BORN?
Delhi

47. FAVORITE PIECE OF JEWELRY?
No jewels for me

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
Luck by chance.... but things are alwayz not that lucky in life....

49. FAVORITE SONG?
Tumse Hi - Jab We Met.... can listen to it anytime....

50.Favorite Musical?
I am not fond of musicals....

Heylo Anu.... I completed the question, kindly review the same and let me know if something is wrong or incorrect
huh what a cliche' official mail types sentence....

Simply gone....

Hi
2 all those who come across my blog like a nomad in desert once a while...
to be truthful to whosoever reading this
I have lost whatever motivation i had to write here
dont know this might be a instinctive feel and i may be gone for a temporary hibernation but atleast itz official

bye :(

US Recession :(

The other day i was working late as usual these days for me, the guy aged around 50, spanish ,who comes to clean the dump and apply the vaccum cleaner came.
I normally says hi to him and then no one bothers the other. That day seeing me late he asked me lot of work. I sighed and told ya!!!!!!!
he said 'You should be thankful, you still have work'
That really shook me and I thanked God.

Dil Chahta Hai

Dil Chahta Hai, Dil Chahta Hai
Dil Chahta Hai, Kabhi Na Beete Chamkeele Din
Dil Chahta Hai, Hum Na Rahein Kabhi Yaaron Ke Bin
Din Din Bhar Ho Pyaari Baatein
Jhoome Shaame, Gaaye Raatein
Masti Mein Rahe Dooba Dooba Hameshaa Samaa
Humko Raahon Mein Yoonhi Milti Rahein Khushiyaan
Dil Chahta Hai, Kabhi Na Beete Chamkile Din,
Dil Chahta Hai, Hum Na Rahe Kabhi Yaaron Ke Bin

--- this is what i felt during this past week. met anu and tiwari along after a long long time. though both of them pulled me up like anything but it was worth a get together..... luking forward to such get togethers in the future.
and yeah thanx also to Madhu n Suman for such gr8 parties n lovely food and company :)

kuch is tarah

Looking myself into the mirror of my mind after a tense day:

Mujhko ko to tere chehare pe ye ghum nahi jhachta
Jaayaz nahi lagta mujhe ghum se tera rishta
Sun meri guzarish ise chehare se hata de -
(kuchh is tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de
Aansu tere saare meri palakon pe saja de)

:(

Yellow Rose

11-Dec-08/2:29p.m EST
Our clientele have just come back from session named 'Fish', for those who'd have inductions done properly must know.
Anyways coming back to the point, I am just reading a few blogs of my frnds when suddenly i hear this voice from head of IT here Gordon 'Your smile says it all'
and i look to see that he's carrying a couple of yellow rose's and gng to a lady's desk. Then suddenly i realized that there is a rose on every lady's desk in the wing.
Well come to know this guy own's a farm and he's back from home after the thanksgiving holidays and everytime he goes back he comes with a bunch of yellow roses from there for all the womenfolk around.
Nice gesture especially in such troubled times.