Vulnerability at its best

just how many lows can be enough is the question in the point?
when do you know that you have just hit the lowest ebb...?
when u know that it just keeps coming up in different faces day after day
a day full of surprises, full of bad surprises...
how should one react to all the things that are gng wrog with you and then when u finally think no it'll stop, zoom comes another one ur way.....
to know that someone's very low on confidence and motivation, would some one dare to throw a stone at that person. And if it hurts it hurts even more..

Nostalgic Bitterness

I dont know what but this day ooops i beg ur pardon Night to be exaxct seems to remind me of the days i used to spend some 3 and a half yrs back in NGT ODC.....
i can some how used to relate to the same environment and atmosphere there as it is here now...
same old empty cubicles....
same old brightly burning lights...
same old music in the ears though this time thru and i-pod ;) ....
same old cribbing in the mind....
same old feelings....
same old things...
same old me all alone once again :(
live today so that i can fight tomorrow
but for what if the tomorrow turns out to be the same...

Why doesn’t it come out?

Why doesn’t it come out?
Life is as what you make and I agree with that totally, but no one asks why does that ‘why’ happens?
Is it your attitude towards life or something else. By saying this I am not undermining the fact that life is not good or everyone is living a miserable one. It is for the fact that you come across more number of people whom you ask and most of the time the answer is –ve and none more than yours.
If it involves you that why is it that’s bothering you then I guess you might already know the answer as it is your own creation in your own way.
I for one is like a fork who has three never meeting ends and the day I become a spoon where every thing is converging I can have my soup, till then I just have to be content with life slipping like noodles from it.
But again we come to the same point, why is my life not better, why am I not feeling good.
You have your personal life, you have your social life and then you have your professional life.
Is there a problem in any of them? Or is there more to it?
Well if there is one thing then you can try to resolve it or think over it! But if it’s a cause of more than 1 or 2 or all then you’ll end up becoming a fork. Useful yet unuseful.

Full Circle

Well it is an old but true saying that life comes in full circle in different ways and different forms of life. Well as per the current happenings the talk of the town is definitely centered around cricket after we won the T20 championships. Much to the amazement and surprise of people we won but i don't totally agree with that ki as were no-hopers but still we won. Lets just look why:
1. An attacking player and after that(skipper) Dhoni...
2. Yuvraj - if he comes into his own then u don't know what he can do...
3. Uthhapa- Exciting young prospect
4. Sehwag - can do wonders at times....
5. Pathan - his all round skills wud be handy in 20-20 match
and that's not all we had good fielding coming along with them which was an added bonus. why i have given only these names is because it is a 20 over format and all it would require is for a couple of batsman to score in a few overs and the job is done. Bowlers i have not thought much is because it is still a batsman biased format till the end so they don't much have to say. So from all this i never agreed with those who said India wouldn't do well in this format.
Well that's gone now the excitement has again back shifted to the task in hand... and i.e Aussies..
the unltimate team to beat and for that we have to match them man to man,runs to runs, wicket to wicket...
The T20 semis victory still gives me more pleasure than anyother victory in that tournament just becuase of the fact that it was against the aussies.
They had so much over confidence going into the match that they actually forgot that it requires effort and hard work to still achieve ur goals( remembering the comments given by M.Clarke saying anything above 200 would be a concern for us)
i dont know why but i believe it is a mental block in the Indian team's pscyhe that we r unable to put it across them when we play them and to prove the point, here is a fact the last ODI we won against them from the current win in Chandigarh was way back in 2004 in Brisbane.. and to rub salt into the wounds we last one chasing against them was ages ago in 1998 when Sach single handedly won us the sharjah and stormed us into the final and won that also.... so it wud further take much much more effort to chase against them.
If we see in the current past we have beaten all the teams and i mean all the teams be it SA, WI, Eng(our current bunny), Pak(we have crushed them anywhere u name it), NZ(not convincingly but ok), SL(barring that World cup debacle we have smashed them also), Bang(Better not talk but play). So what it is against the aussies that we fail to put it across them, we can c that other sides manage to beat them more regularly than us so where lies them problem, may b in the mind , may be in the heart....
The answer from me is SELF-BELIEF, we give in even before the match is over
i still recall yesterday only when the aussies reqd 16 in the last over and James Hopes and Brett Lee batting everyone in the ODC were saying they wud win, they wud hit a couple of sixes and it wud be over. Ok my point is guys guys pls wait just think who is batting is not a symonds or hayden or gilchrist or ponting but lower order batsmen so give some chance to us also... and in the end everyone was happy but they had no words in their mouth to back what they r saying...
I dearly hope that this win would surely go a long way to give it....
The win in T20 has shown is this game is agr8 leveller
both the sides that once were trashers best story sellers of world cup debacle reached the final and played a great won... the intense pressure, intense competition was there to be seen by every-1
So no matter what ponting, symonds , gilly and team blabber that we r over-joyed by the victory of T20 just dunnot loose ur self-belief and keep working hard towards ur goal.
Let them say that but the fact is fact we beat them on the road to finals and no one and no one can change that. Their ego is hurt more than pride. they r the world champs and no one can deny that but we have in us to put it across them and we require is dedication, show that and we'll get the results....
I am always there for support and to this day i still feel that had Australia batted second in the 2003 and 2007 finals they surely would have lost either one of them(2003 more possiblity as India was in Tremendous form)

Ironical

life has come a full circle for me
what used to be past is staring to be done in future
some harsh decisions need to made
some facts to be revealed...
i can't run away from death anymore as it is the only truth in life.
but i live to lie another day
but where, from whom, till when
not for long!

There Goes another one

Well so where we were when we left the last post
College oh yes college and that flirt incident ;) but never mind I am not those types
So we’ll start from where we left
Well as I told that to catch a bus it was an effort in itself
But it was rather more interesting and exciting as you can get ample time to be with your friends and have a bit of fun
Well I was known for my naughtiness throughout my schooling and college wasn’t different at all
Just that the teachers their didn’t have the gumption to write on my collar ‘please don’t send this kid to school from tomorrow’
So what did I do exactly? Well to an extent there are a lot of incident but I will state a couple of those to start with
First week of college and myself and Gaurav out of our common hobbies (cricket, WWF, taklking etc..) were on road to become good frnds
There was this guy ankush who used to come from faridabad cross delhi and then to Sahibabad in UP a crossover of two states
He was a fool in himself who used to flaunt his long distance traveling achievements. He was one of those who used to think of so highly of himself.
One fine day he was waiting for his train to faridabad when suddenly as the train arrived one guy Mudit in our class told him that
‘anika’ one of the nice babes of our class was waiting for him in the other platform and foolishly he came to that platform and missed his train
Next day after narrating this incident I called on Gaurav after college and on reaching home that I am ankush and am waiting at the railway station
Some one has pick pocketed me and am left with no money at all, it would be great if he could come and help him out! To which mr. Gaurav took great caution
to listen but finally agreed to come. That’s another thing that I told him the truth before he could embark on that great journey towards station.
Now as I was known for my extra currcular activities one of which was naming people with funny names though it is an irony in itself that I also got my nick name
like this only but that’s another story another day ;)
So there was this guy nitin anand in our class very sober, looked calm & composed, self indulged in himself, ok in academics but somehow
He reminded of something, something living, no not a man but an animal! Yes he reminded me of a donkey who has all these great features in it.
So how can I leave such a person without naming ;) well this is also a trick to name a person and make it famous.
You first be friends with the guy and then start talking all the stupid things abt others so that he can feel at ease and in between the conversation
And then when u think it is suitable you spit out the name upon him among the company of ‘others’ so that not only him but others also know of it.
So the name to coin for him, any guesses well better leave it to me. With all the qualities that he possessed I pronounced his name as ‘Bhondu’
Which literally means idiot, stupid, nuts(that wud be 2 much). Yes he proudly called as bhondu by me. But he disliked it from the start itself.
But me being me the stubborn leg pulling prankster would call him bhondu not when only he is around but others are also there.
So one day when our classes got over we left for home and this guy was standing in the border waiting for bus, along with my buddy gaurava and one
other guy Himanshu. So I reached the place and from a distance where I can see them standing started calling him bhondu bhondu bhondu bhai…
by the time I reached there his anger had turned into a forgone conclusion as he also knew by the time that I wouldn’t be stopping for anything
there I met them and left for my place. The next day Gaurav tells me that I was saved from a beating, asked him why what happened?
He said laughingly when I was running towards them shouting bhondu this guy ‘himanshu’ asked him who the hell I was referring to whether to him?
Then to the utter disappointment from the horse’s mouth itself Nitin tells him don’t worry its not you who he is calling but me! ;( (expression on his face)

Long live the Great Bhondu………. ;))

times walk by....

In this life i have seen good times and bad times
all the good times reminds me of somethings
and that is bad times are just around the corner
it is not that good times are less but they are more or less part of my own efforts to hide the bad times
i am on a constant race b/w these two
i know this race is gng to end and i would be the only one standing!